The past few weeks have been full of ups and downs. Not limited to, but including breakups, makeups and family trips. First, Ohio to see my Ex sister in law (we really need to come up with better titles for each other, honestly!) Then, this past weekend my mom, daughter and I went to Chicago as a birthday gift to my daughter. Fun filled weekend full of (crazy expensive) hotel snacks, taxi rides and touristy things. But, let's get to the meat of things.
Recently I got back together with my ex (boyfriend, not husband, and please, save the collective sighs and eye rolls.) I have been keeping it quiet, not because I'm ashamed or embarrassed or anything like that, but just not to jinx it. Really. I'm not always so superstitious, but I do believe in jinxing things, and this is one thing I don't want to jinx. We agree we have issues, like any other relationship out there, but we believe that they are things we can work on, learn from and move forward. I went through the 5 stages of grief after our break up. I ate ice cream, I cried, I vowed to make him regret his (well, our) decision. But honestly, the reality of not having him anymore hit me, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Long story short, we talked, I cried, and here we are, happy, and taking things one day at a time. I recently told a family member of mine (this is where I won't mention names, because I love said family member with all my heart and don't feel it's appropriate to put them on blast.) and their response was "He's a pill. I'm sorry, but he is." I'm all for everyone having their own opinions, and sharing them. I'm all for judging (after all, I'm the judgiest.) but honestly? This is my life, my heart and my happiness, and sometimes opinions should be kept to yourself. (I mean, even I can keep some things inside my head, and that's saying something.)
The past few years have been full of joy, depression, laughs and tears, and my family has been there through it all, I know that without a doubt they just want the best for me, and to see me happy, but when I am happy, please don't rain on my parade. Who knows, there may be a day when this person can stand up and say "I told you so." That's fine, do it at the family Christmas dinner, heck I will even pay for you to rent a billboard advertising it, but right now? Please, just be there for me, and be happy, because you know what? All pills aren't bad for you. Sure, I don't like that my fish oil pill is freaking huge, and I have to take it 3 times a day, but the pros outweigh those 2 cons. (My hair has never been better!) So, while you may think he's a pill, and hard to swallow, just remember that right now, and in the long run, the pros outweigh the cons. He makes me happy, and he's what I want. I love him, and he loves me, and yeah, he's good for me too. He has never put me down, and he has given me the courage, and motivation to do some things I never thought I would, or could. He's supportive of my decisions, and encourages me to follow my dreams. Why wouldn't you want that for me? So please, just take this pill with a big gulp of water and try and be happy about it, if you aren't, that's ok too, but keep that to yourself, please.
